02.05.26
Note to self:
When I hurt people…. I can literally feel my soul bleed.
Searing, oozing, sick warmth in my chest has become one of my most vivid experiences that tell me, “I am still a sucky human being.” I feel this sensation leading up to, especially during, and then diminishingly after the moment of my spite towards a person. And let me tell you, while fading, it lingers like a wound.
I record this somewhat selfishly for the sake of a negative motivation to be a better human being (ha the irony) the next time I’m faced with my own spite: It hurts to hurt. Don’t do it. No matter how badly you want to.
DON’T.
